Everything hurts...I've coughed so much that my ribs are sore and I can't move. When I do it's like someone tried to kick them in to the point they feel as if they're broken. I'm also wheezing and my joints are popping and convulsing. I haven't been able to sleep either because of the pain. Ugh...
Dear god I can't take this pain anymore! God why does my life suck ASS because I'm not worth anything to anyone? Hahah is that it? *sigh* why do I have these fits of panic? Maybe I'm so tired that I've lost all my sanity and try. It's not just that situation you know? I've been suffering ever since I was six. It's been hell. I wanna hurt myself and feel something again. Something different. But I can't...I promised someone and that someone is the only reason why I felt wanted. I used to feel wanted and I still miraculously have hope for something better.
I'm sick, I can't breathe and it hurts. Sitting here makes me think and the more I think, the more I wanna die...no one can save me now. I wish the sickness was worse and I could just sleep forever. I pray for relief and I want it so bad...I'm sorry....